If you know me, you know it’s no secret that I’m not the stereotypical Pastor’s Wife. I don’t dress conservatively, I don’t speak softly, I’m not politically correct, etc. No knock on those who do, I’m just saying, it’s not me.
Because of this I have struggled for years now to understand WHY God put Shaun and I together. I have often thought it was either a mistake or a joke on God’s part (well the mistake would have been on Shaun…not God). I mean we love each other, make pretty babies, and have a good time as a couple and family. All that makes sense. It’s the whole “Pastor” part that has had me stumped. Well, he fits as a pastor (sort of), but I don’t (or at least didn’t) as a pastor’s wife.
Or so I’ve thought.
But God has shown me something over the past few weeks. He has shown me exactly why I am actually called to this, and how it wasn’t a cruel joke nor a mistake.
I risk the appearance of arrogance with the rest of this post. But trust me, this isn’t boasting. All that I am I am because HE made me so. I have no illusions about that!
A few Sundays ago, I was doing what seems to be a trend these days- running around doing 50 different things. This is what that particular Sunday looked like:
*Got up at 6:30am
*Got myself together, and ironed clothes for all 4 kids + Shaun (b/c otherwise he’s content to go wrinkled. Normally I allow it, b/c I don’t have time to care, but not on Sundays…lol)
*Printed a sign-in sheet and note cards for a class we have at Courageous called “Next Steps”
*Packed up rice krispie treats, butter, and beads for a project taking place at Courageous Kids
*Woke up the rest of the house, got everyone dressed, did 5 sets of hair
*Fed the kids a light breakfast (b/c they eat at Church thanks to free breakfast), packed a milk cup and diapers for Savannah
*Got everyone in the car (tough all by itself- making sure everyone has the right everything of what they’re supposed to have), and arrived at church by 8:30
*Got to church, dropped off the sign in sheet and note cards, found pens and put them in the classroom, checked on the Next Steps teacher to make sure he was squared away
*Checked the kids into Children’s Ministry
*Realized I forgot to print something one of the teachers needed, ran to the computer room to do so
*Noticed praise and worship for children’s ministry was not going so well (the kids are normally a little slow-moving at the first service); Sooo, I took off my blazer and hills, cranked up the music, and proceeded to jump around and dance like a crazy person until every child got into it!
*Sweating, I put my blazer back on, went to the infant room to check on Savannah, sat and talked with the moms in there for a minute, then ran downstairs to do about 10 more things…
As I was standing at the elevator I clearly felt the Holy Spirit speak to me. ” This is why I chose you to do this with him. This is why you’re a pastor’s wife.”
Not because I’m sweet (polite, and nice maybe), not because I’m just as passionate about saving the world as Shaun is (I’m not), not because I say the right things (I don’t), wear the right clothes, not because I’m the prettiest (close, but no cigar 😉
…but BECAUSE not every woman can teach Next Steps, help with children’s ministry, run small groups, sing on the praise team, serve on the lead team, take care of home AND stay sane at the same time.
Since that Sunday, I’ve begun to approach my role with a confidence I didn’t possess before. My strengths may not be traditional or obvious, but with the gifts God has given me, I make it “do what it do”..lol. And so CAN, so DO YOU!!
Whatever it is God called you to, know that it wasn’t by accident nor happenstance. Whatever you need is already in you, or will be soon!