*This Sunday we had another launch team gathering at our home. It is interesting to me the mix of people that are coming together for these meetings. I still have no idea what this church will look like.
*An interesting discussion arose between Shaun and I and a couple we are good friends with concerning how you handle sin issues among people who serve in your church. Juicy huh? I’ll have to blog about that in more detail later.
*This church planting thing really tests my faith.
*You have to believe that the vision you have is a vision from God.
*You have to believe that God will indeed send people who will get on board and help bring the vision to pass.
*You have to believe that the financing will come through.
*You have to believe that the right venue will come through.
*You have to believe that your husband is equipped to fulfill this dream he’s chasing.
*You have to believe that YOU-as the wife- are equipped to follow and lead alongside him (I still wonder if I am).
*You have to believe that the possibility of saving souls and leading people into meaningful relationship with Christ is worth the OVERWHELMING possibility of failure (this, surprisingly, is the easy part…attempting to follow what you see as the call of God is always worth any personal risk).
*You have to believe that your family can survive the strain-that God will keep you and your children safely in his hands.
Speaking of this, I was so proud of my girls today. They were the only kids at the meeting because most 27 and 29 year olds don’t have children, and if they do, they’re not as numerous nor as old as ours.
This gathering consumed the entirety of our day. And once I sent the girls to bed and cleaned the mess left behind, I realized I hadn’t properly talked to them or kissed them goodnight. I realized they had entertained themselves for the majority of the day, and they had been mostly like shadows. I must admit it made me very, very sad for them. They had been so gracious and understanding, and didn’t give us one bit of trouble. They are really good girls, and I thank God for them.
I want my children to always know that they are more important to us than any mission or goals of our own-even a church plant. So, I went to their room and saw that they weren’t yet sleeping. I hugged and kissed them and thanked them for cleaning their room, and for being so polite and respectful, and for sharing their home and parents with a bunch of strangers for the day. I could tell it meant a lot to them, and it made me feel better too.
We always ask the question: What does it profit a man to gain the whole world and lose his soul? As church planters we should also be careful to ask what it profits a man to gain other souls, but lose those of his own children? God forbid, this will not be our testimony! Call me selfish, but I would not trade 10,000 souls for one of theirs. I guess this is why God sent Jesus to die on the cross, and not me.